some mistake by Ivona Bozik

Once you accidentally killed a fly

believing it was a mosquito

and your face got sad

with one of those frowns

gestures that made my love take roots

deep far in the dark of me

Like in the moments your whole body twitched

and released a gasp

because of an unexpected movie scene

or an irregular noise outside

your look of suspicion 

Like in those your arm your hand

warned me about an approaching car or tram

and both of our steps suddenly simultaneously stopped

Like every time all your strict nature

harshness and cynicism

hatred even

ran down to its source

and all I could see

was empathy

kindness respect

(disillusioned)

someone who generously held space

So now looking at clouds

neatly packed right above the last roof I can see

giving impression of alpine peaks in rosy snow

I wonder

Did you mistake me for a vampire too?

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“I doubted this piece a lot, because I usually don't write in English and even more rarely write poetry. These words just burst out one time when I was reminiscing while cooking lunch, so they seemed too direct, personal and random to become an actual poem. As often, the thoughts insisted till I wrote them down. And then, I forgot about them for some time, but I don't know... for me, there is still something touching about them. The way we can love people, not despite but because of who they are, and how some moments just make that love grow, even when we already know it's not reciprocal.”

Ivona Bozik (she/her) is a curious Slovenian writer and content creator, living in Montpellier, France, and passionate about literature, music, travel and social justice. Her texts were so far published in various Slovenian literary magazines, as well as on Feminine Collective, The Amazine and Hook Literary Magazine.