Love Me by Amanda C


you can blame internet, society or the devil instead

but when it's dark my rainbow heart has always saved me from giving up

and if i die you'll say i lacked of god

but what you'll never see is what i lacked of was love

 

so love me

love me as much as you hate seeing my sister enjoy a kiss with a woman

love me as much as you fear i follow her steps

love me as much as it sickens you that we don't need no man

love as much as you think you love me when you hate who i became

 

love me fearless and strong and kind and patient

love me when i understand that love can mean no danger

love me when empathy is my priority

love me when i never let the sorrow take the best of me

 

love me stone cold saying you only want the best

love me straight and leave me lost in the right lines of who you want me to be

love me deadly while you make me hate the love in my veins

love me as you suffocate me with your words spoken in vain

 

love me when i'm as human as i'll ever be

love me when i make love with more humans just like me

love me cause you have no other choice

than accepting that love's got its own voice

 

love me as wild as you think my lifestyle is

love me as much as you believe you'll change me

 

love me, love me as much as you want

hate me, hate me and keep saying it's love

but while you judge my life and darken your heart

know that your hatred will never tear my colours apart



“I wrote this poem 2 years ago. It was written out of anger because a big part of my family was being homophobic towards me and my sister. They tried to tell us that all of their bullshit was love. I never posted it cause I know it has a lot of mistakes and it can be hard to read, I'm not even sure if it can be called a poem.”

My name is Alejandra Cedeño, but I prefer to be called Amanda C. My pronouns are she/her and I'm 21. I'm from Esmeraldas, Ecuador. My twitter is @_upunkass and my instagram @amandastears, I post everything I think is worth posting on my instagram account.

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